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valleaux wrote:

re-phaelam-ed wrote:for those who are posting high....to watch

Oh my. I'm very glad that exists.

That video plays out like...say BoC were commissioned to make a couch gag.

That's just about what I'd expect.

Rodheh wrote:Man, I sure would love to be able to blame prozac for why I'm so fucked up and genuinely make myself believe it. Would probably ease everything up by about a thousand.

Put it this way. Please don't write me off as a 'wacko conspiracy theorist' because I spend a lot of my time doing research in to brain chemistry which is a subject of fascination to me.
Fluorine compounds literally encrust the gland that produces melatonin in your brain with a layer of rock thus rendering them dysfunctional until you are able to flush it out over a period of months. The bond F- (fluoride) makes with Calcium is incredibly strong and where your brain tries to get rid of excess calcium from the brain it can't as a result of this bond.
I was heavily fluoridated for a long time and it robbed me of all feelings of spirituality, made me chronically anxious in public and an eccentric weirdo. They tried to tell me I was 'bipolar' and gave me even more fluoridated compounds. When infact all of my mood problems came from being fluoridated. In the last six months I have reduced my intake to springwater levels of fluoride (safe and good for bone structure and teeth) at no more than 0.1ppm in water. Black and green teas are also bioaccumulators of fluorine so switch to coffee if you haven't already and needless to say find a toothpaste that is fluoride and fluorine compound free. I can link you to many studies taken place in laboratories that are difficult to find that prove this to be the truth. Melatonin is the most potent antioxidant the body produces (front line defence against cancer) and is also proven to reduce anxiety and pain in those coming out of surgery, suggesting that naturally it reduces anxiety and pain perception. The difference between me and a conspiracy theorist is my own personal research. Good luck, Rodeh <3

Prozac (flu-oxetine [the hint is in the 'flu']) Is a highly fluorinated compound.

All of those polarising thoughs. To be nice or not to be anything or not to be. These all arise from the way fluorine affects your mind. It makes one obsessive and anxious and without a sense of who they are. These things should flow naturally and you should know that things are not polarised but on a fluid scale in which you will find your place comfortably.

Before anyone contests me on this. They can ask me any question of doubt that they want and I will be able to answer it and back it up with scientific studies.

I'm not writing you off as anything. I don't feel the need to bring my inner armchair neuropsychiatrist into this and if you want someone to contest whatever your point is (assuming it has to do with standard pharmacology), you can go on over to Bluelight. I'm sure someone there will be more than happy to go at it for hours.

I feel it's pretty obvious that if someone suffers from heavy suicidal ideation and they're pretty sure a medication that isn't helping them in any way is the cause, they should stop taking it. I'm not objecting to anything really that's been said, more what hasn't been said. I can only account for myself. I won't tell anyone else what is or isn't going to work for them and I sure as hell won't pretend I know what is or isn't detrimental to their health. Shit's subjective. What alleviates for one person will cause a mess of problems for another, particularly with SSRI and SNRI medications prescribed for any reason. I've tried enough to have some idea where I stand and I know pretty well what if anything I get out of those I tolerate.

If I take it at my own discretion, the inherently non-'spiritual', eccentric weirdo I am (have been since I was very young and non-medicated) and I feel I get something out of it, that's pretty much where that discussion ends. Fluoride isn't really as much a thorn in my side as it seems to have been for you. I'm also pretty confident my self-diagnosis is not a misdiagnosis so we're clearly in a different situation.

I had no desire to speak very seriously about medication. I merely poked my head in here and said something completely honest that was on my mind out of boredom.

To lighten things a little, I'm a strong 7 here

You know, I remember someone saying something exactly along the lines of "I find Sixtyten to honestly be one of the most grating things BoC have ever made."

And for like months, whenever I listened to that song, that particular sentence kept coming back to me and all I could think was "THAT'S WHY IT'S SO FUCKING GOOD YOU DUMB FUCK!"

Of course the person wasn't a dumb fuck for having an opinion and that's really just a substitution for something like "silly goose". Whenever I get comments like that trapped, looping in my head, they seem to always eventually amplify to an outburst that grows and grows but is never spoken. They're the sort of odd, obvious remarks that render almost as non-sequiturs. "I find Echus to be one of the most gentle things BoC have ever made", "I find Magic Window to be one of the most empty things BoC have ever made," blagh. Statement should be "I don't like [obvious trait assumed everyone will see as negative]" instead of just pointing out that trait.

oh yeah, high, on life or something...what have you...sure

Rodheh wrote:I'm not writing you off as anything. I don't feel the need to bring my inner armchair neuropsychiatrist into this and if you want someone to contest whatever your point is (assuming it has to do with standard pharmacology), you can go on over to Bluelight. I'm sure someone there will be more than happy to go at it for hours.

I feel it's pretty obvious that if someone suffers from heavy suicidal ideation and they're pretty sure a medication that isn't helping them in any way is the cause, they should stop taking it. I'm not objecting to anything really that's been said, more what hasn't been said. I can only account for myself. I won't tell anyone else what is or isn't going to work for them and I sure as hell won't pretend I know what is or isn't detrimental to their health. Shit's subjective. What alleviates for one person will cause a mess of problems for another, particularly with SSRI and SNRI medications prescribed for any reason. I've tried enough to have some idea where I stand and I know pretty well what if anything I get out of those I tolerate.

If I take it at my own discretion, the inherently non-'spiritual', eccentric weirdo I am (have been since I was very young and non-medicated) and I feel I get something out of it, that's pretty much where that discussion ends. Fluoride isn't really as much a thorn in my side as it seems to have been for you. I'm also pretty confident my self-diagnosis is not a misdiagnosis so we're clearly in a different situation.

I had no desire to speak very seriously about medication. I merely poked my head in here and said something completely honest that was on my mind out of boredom.

I apologise for my earlier comments. I can unintentionally appear to be condescending and saying 'I know what's good for you' and I have to work on that. Tbh it made such a difference for me, but you are right, everything is subjective and I could have just had a melatonin deficiency and cured it. No two minds are wired in symmetry. I sometimes forget that. I will say that on the whole melatonin is a powerful antioxidant and mild sedative that helps with anxiety and sleep and a lot of people are being deprived of it from birth because of bioaccumulation of fluoride. It is a subject I feel strongly about because I feel that it makes people fearful and antisocial and generally afraid of the 'big bad world' to an extent in which they feel like living without society would be a state of hell. It makes them feel like they need insulation and when they find it they cling to it with every fiber in their being and eventually die inside when it is time for it to leave them

I had to go too far down to get to this damn topic.

Nothing beats the first spliff after a day of work + studying though.

Agreed. Can this thread be stickied? (pun!?)

Got some amnesia for a change. Your weed this saturday got my tastebuds going

Bump. Speedball. Probably my last seeing how dangerous it can be.


But fuck man, is it -something else-

Rodheh wrote:Bump. Speedball. Probably my last seeing how dangerous it can be.


But fuck man, is it -something else-

For real, What kind of speedball are we talking here?

Coffee + Nytol or are you slamming Crack and Brown together and deciding to enhance your experience by dropping a bit of Twoism on the side ?

Don't talk to it.

It might bite.

Nothing of the "how Hoffman died" variety.

The only distinction of detail I'm willing to mention on this particular occasion is that things were taken to peak at the same time. Nothing notable other than that and I ended up on Twoism as I was finishing up composing a really irritating percussive piece that night which involved a very old loop that eyesix "sampled" from me (granted, I had given him the stems to remix my track at the time, though he used them in an "original" one and didn't tell me until being found out and I felt then that it was no big deal as this was before he'd been caught) and I wanted to come check the status of all that after I was done.

What I could have said was "sorry about the word choice, I'm fine" as it freaked someone out who took it to mean I was powerballing or something really hard/stupid.

What I SHOULD have said was nothing at all, as while I don't feel -uncomfortable- talking about it here, Twoism is by no means Bluelight, nor should it be. This thread has its place though.

I forget too often that my sense of sarcasm and exaggeration gets entirely too lost over the internet lol.

hahahahaha

Cupz wrote:hahahahaha

Appropriate Twoism posts.

blazin' santa maria never stops tickling things are so funny

I'm not high.
But this guy was...
https://www.thepoke.co.uk/2018/05/03/st ... written/2/

A++++ Would read again.

I smoked for the first time in awhile last night. Does that count? Am I cool?

SamuraiDrifter wrote:I smoked for the first time in awhile last night. Does that count? Am I cool?

Its been a really long time, actually. Maybe a year which is unheard of for me considering I was smoking it every day about five years ago.

It's been about a year since I did anything other than my daily medication (not the nasty shit, I was very picky about it not being something synthetic and damaging), coffee and cigarettes actually. I feel a bit like a ten year old in spirit at the moment in that I have that kind of glow about me in terms of optimism and perceiving everything as softer visually. Drugs and alcohol kind of take that from you after a while, but they can be interesting too.